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| This isn't the easiest message to post after having been gone from you for so long, my faithful undying friends. Loyalty has been honored and honor has been kept amongst us in many ways. Friends of the past have been lost or long gone, friends of tomorrow will come to replace them, but some will never leave, nor be replaced. Those of you who are that close to me know who you are. Our past is our past, for us all. Now it's time to put it aside and come together in ways most would not be willing or able to do. Union is the only thing that will suffice. Regardless of mistakes, regardless of anything that stood between it before. I've dreamed a dream that I long lost sight of, and have been reminded of tonight in words on the wind like the words of a god spoken for me and me alone to hear. Who spoke them I do not know but my closest ally, my most trusted protector from centuries passed after 3 years of near silence has began to scream in my ear so that I can hear NOTHING else but it's call, it's come time for me to make a choice again. As most of you know, my grandma likely won't have long to live, and in one of my earlier dreams when I started this blog, that death is what triggered for my life an irreversable river of events that forever changed how I thought or felt towards the spiritual world. I had but one goal in mind, fight on without her, and become better than she could have seen if she were alive. Though the voice that reminds me now of things once said is incased in spanish steel now confirmed to date between the late 1600's and early 1700's, it's voice has only grown louder. It once stood at my side with pride in a great battle, and it was what got me into being a general. Now, it's leading me to my destiny. Can I make it? That depends on you as much as it does me. Colorado Springs....... just remember this, 2 years, from this day, in march. You will find me on a mountain overlooking a "hotel". When you find me, you will find more than just me, you will find that the world around you has already collapsed. I do not threaten to do it because it's not my doing, nor is it someone I have ever heard of or met. These events have been shown to me in dreams and visions, nothing more. But the dream I had, suddenly seems even more possible now than it did. Now I see, it's not a matter of am I worthy, but can I make the right choice, can I be the person I have to be regardless of my own desires and worth? Can I take this on, and win? The answer is, I don't know, but I'll be damned if I sit aside and do nothing when called. I am already a king in my own right, I do not expect to be called one by the masses, but I do expect to see the kingdom in which I will reside. Take that as you will. *smirks* For any of you who have dreamed of the things I have, did you stand before a castle, with planes flying above you, inside city walls made of earthen stone, a natural wall of mountain lined behind? If so I encourage you to check out the landscape surrounding Colorado Springs, CO. Right in front of the garden of the gods. My battle cry once was soft, meaningless, so I have quelched the noise with my own two lips. Holding it in, waiting, growing, trying to be better than my own self. Hoping to reach for the heavens with my sound so that the world itself may tremble from the ferocity in the words. HEAR ME! The time is come!.................... but then I'd be getting ahead of myself, and overly dramatic if I were to let it go so soon, and the power of it would long be faded. 2 years, march. Stone Wolf King among men, and a servant of them. | | |
| As surely I bow to the people I will soon lead, i ask you not to bow to me, but to raise your swords at my side when time comes for us. I do not ask you much my friends, my allies, my family, my people. I only ask what you ask of me. At some point, when the war does fall upon us like fire from the skies and demons scour the world, raise your hands, if you wish not die. Raise your swords if you choose to protect this world with all you have. If you wish inspiration, look upon the world you lived as a child without the people, with the inocence of the sky, the gentleness of the breeze, or the brightness of the sun upon your skin. Remember the smells of the flowers as you walked passed, remember all the pleasantries the world offered before we knew what they meant. Now I ask if you will fight, what do you fight for? If ever you fight at my side, let it be for these things and these alone. We fight for peace, we fight for love, we fight for justice, balance, and truth! We fight so there will be no need to fight again, we fight so the wars can be over, and our children can run and play in peace, so when we die our spirits do not have to continue this struggle we have wrought ourselves for so many thousands of years. Things are changing, and they change with haste. With haste shall we change them back and show those who would step on our freedom, step on our beliefs and world that we are through! We've been repressed and depressed for so long that many of us have forgotten what it means to stand up for that which we care about most. I will not fall silently into the night! For the stars make more noise than a million bombs, I will not sink into the depths of the ocean with a spirit that has been stolen because my spirit cannot be stolen! I will stand, I will fight, I will do what I must to be worthy of the position of king when this war comes for us. And I will make sure the world remembers the ways of old, the loved ones we may loose or may have been forced to leave behind. Let us stand in our world, and show it what we are capable of doing, let us remember we must have a leader, but that leader must not be for himself but for the people. Let the council be chosen by those who can be trusted, because undoubtedly they will. As surely as I was born I am Prince Stone Wolf, prince of the people. But I walk amongst you as no greater, no lesser a man. We in our own right are equals, we are family, by our own design. So shall we protect that family and not let one of us fall without reason! At arms! The war approaches..... Prince Stone Wolf Prince of the people, and future king among them. | | |
| To those who know me, you would realize I am full of energy on almost a constant basis and never seem short in supply. Though after tonight, for at least the next few days, I am undergoing a lesson. And I will be very useless I'm affraid, though if all goes well when I am needed, I will not just be there but be there stronger, and faster than ever before. Smarter as well. Sometimes to walk, we must learn to fall. And that's exactly what I'm going to be allowing myself to do. So if I seem to be acting funny, no worries, a friend is teaching me a huge lesson, I only hope to learn a great deal from it. Thank you all, for everything. This lesson, if I succeed in learning, should make me fully worthy of what it will take to lead my people to the kingdom I so desperately wish to show them. So hears to hoping. And hears to the world of the future! Like an eagle I soar, from oblivion, into the mirror of the sky. ~Kamelot Prince Stone Wolf Prince of the people, and future king. I cannot fail now, there is far too little time remaining. | | |
| It's a rare occasion rage comes out to play, often times it comes through for me in moments where pain is the dominant emotion I feel. Like right now. I'm scared, my bank is doing the same thing every bank has done to me and thanks to it's bullshit I'm now at 217$ negative overnight, 3 hours ago I had almost 100$ I had planned to use to begin PAYING for refferals, enough to get some major cash flow started, but thanks to this.......... now I won't be making anything at all, because I'll end up loosing THIS bank account, and if I loose my bank account I loose my chance at having an online job. Which means yet AGAIN work is going to be nearly impossible to find and I am so close to giving up. Earlier this week I couldn't believe my eyes this was working. Now my bank runs checks through TWICE from wal-mart, or at least I THINK that's where they were written. They should have only taken 24-48 hours to go through and I have been watching my account like a hawk getting within just a couple dollars of 0, but staying into the posstive. Now? I don't know what to do........ I'm not asking for any help just explaining that the month of April is the worst month of my life. I had thought last year was only a fluke, that this year, April would be nothing in the way of trouble, hell, maybe even that fate would be so kind as to make up for last year. But this year it seems everything I dreamed was coming into place, I was quickly making a name for myself online, paving a clear path, and now that path has hit a dead end and I have no idea if I will ever make it out of this without turning BACK to my grandparents, in which case I know they won't help me keep the account open...... the charges go through tomorrow morning, and I will have overdraft on top of it all. 2nd chance banking = no chance. Obviously. Thanks fate..... thanks a lot, hope you die of your own worst fears..... Prince Stone Wolf Enraged, depressed, and just wanting to vanish for a while and await the worlds balance to return with a sudden destructive boom that rocks the universe. Prince of the People PS. Yeah, today was a new day, a new day I wish I hadn't woken up to see, but slept and stayed in bed comfortable warm and happy. I miss Dawn.................... | | |
| Well it's official. Yesterday, one year ago, my father passed away. That's not what's bothering me right now though. 6 days from today, on april 28th, my best friend, and brother Daniel Bales, age 24 passed away from heart failure in his sleep, having finally gotten a steady job, an appartment, and his very own car. He was litterally on his own two feet for the first time in his life. He had been out of a nursing home for 2 weeks, and had been in for 2 months or so, he was in the hospital in a comma for a few weeks around Christmas time. He had to have a breathing tube for sleep apnia. He died a virgin. In my mind he died in a good way, and I know he died smiling. Must have been a good dream. I was in Independence, MO that day, just 2 blocks from my friend Dawn's apt. Where Joel used to live, Joel and Kelly and I were driving to pick up Joel's dad a hamburger, it was cold...... and raining. When I got the phone call I pulled into Wendy's parking lot, parked the jeep, got out, and kneeled in the rain as it soaked to my bones in cold. I couldn't cry, I couldn't breathe, I couldn't speak, I couldn't think. All I knew was that......... he was there the day before, I'd talked to him on the phone, he was fine.... and then he was gone. And it's all because of that damned job I got him. The manager at Tyson security worked him 72 hours a week for the 2 weeks he worked there. I didn't know about it or I would have knocked that man out cold. I'd have broken his jaw. He was still recovering, and had explicit orders to take it easy, but........ although I don't blame myself, death is a part of life. We all will and must die. I only hope he realizes I only mourn right now because of what we aren't able to do together. Joel and Danny would have gotten along so well. I remember it like it was yesterday...... 1 year.... and for the past year to see him I've had to speak to a mound of dirt, where his body now lies. It was an open casket funeral. I'll never forget, it wasn't him lying there........ Anyhow, if anyone is trying to get ahold of me and can't reach me, it's cause to be honest for once in my life I feel like being alone for a few days....... normally I'm happy to have a shoulder to cry on but this time I know it's only time that will heal me. And I already know you are all here for me. Thank you. And just keeping me in your hearts IS enough. On a line of good news, I'm starting to pull in money from doing online refferals, if Erica has asked you to do it and you are worried it's a scam it's not, I've been working hard at it. It's legit, and worth the effort. Just get yourself a paypal account and try it. Anyhow, for those of you out there worrying about me I will try not to be a complete ghost......... goodnight and love you all........ Prince Stone Wolf prince, of the people. PS. We loose to learn to accept that loss is so easy. Accept what you have, enjoy it while you can, and as a friend of mine named Crazy Joe once said, Live Life Like Your Ass is on Fire! Because take it from me, tomorrow is always a new day, and you never know if it's your last, even if you do have connections to fate *sticking out tounge* | | |
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